ABC

Describing everyone's fundamental grievances has idolised Jeremy Kyle. Like most normal oppressed people queers respond sympathetically to unemployed viewers, whilst xhosans yawn zanily. 

Apparently Bristolian Catholics despise everything fully-fledged Graham has in-sighted. Judging knockabout lovers, making nonsense outcomes. Petty quarrels result! Striving to unite vegatative women. Xenophobic yuppification? Zeitgeist?

(I wanted to continue but unfortunately  I have much college work which must be done =[. No doubt I'll come back to it in the future)

By Gareth Luce 

Keep Going!

I was reading some of the poems I've wrote over the years and I thought seen as I hadn't posted anything in a while and I've never shared any poems on here I'd put one up. This isn't necessarily my favorite or the one I consider the best it's just well chosen pretty much at random I guess.

Keep Going

When happiness shuts the door
Climb in through the window
And when you can’t push anymore
Try pulling

There’s a way through everything
Just take time to look at the map
Look back at where you’ve been
Cause often you’ve just missed a turn

But when your faced with a wall
And you can’t turn back
Give me a call
You can climb on my shoulders

I’ll always be near
Whether in person or in spirit
I’ll keep away all fear
And clear your path of traps

But you will still fall
When you do pick something up
And if you ever feel like ending it all
Just remember I’ll miss you.

By Gareth Luce

Thats that one maybe I'll put another one up another time. This one is different to my others in that it could almost be continuous prose and it doesn't have lots of imagery or other devices but still let me know how you like it if at all. 

Gareth x

Keeping it Real

I'm a huge fan of Ross Noble (absolute legend) and me and a friend were talking about one of his shows today. In it he says "Why keep it real? Why not keep it vaguely imaginative?" or words to that affect at least. And though it was intended in part as a joke I think why not.

I often think to myself the world is a much too serious place. I was thinking about that in my post Life's Questions when I said "Or is it rather the world struggles to convince me?". I suppose in a way I'm a renewed person. I went through a pretty kerraaazay emotional time and now I've come out the other side with a totally different outlook on life; Laugh at EVERYTHING. Ok I still have moments when I'm down but I'm trying more and more to cast it aside and laugh about it. Clearly I'm not the first person to have this view point because I know of loads of quotes that perhaps say what I want to say a bit of a better way. Here's a few:

"When a man can't laugh at himself it's time for others to start laughing at him."

"Life's far too important to ever talk seriously about." ~ Oscar Wilde

They go something along those lines at least. In my mind it's OK to laugh and make jokes about other people so long as if you were in that position you'd happily take it and laugh at yourself. If everyone took this stance it would be a great world to live in full of smiles and laughter. 

So to bring it back to the Ross Noble quote where this all began. Why keep it real when our imaginations can make it so much more fun. What's wrong with making a fool out of yourself if it'll make other people laugh. And even if it doesn't make them laugh you can still have fun doing it. 

Gareth x

To answer those questions...

Ok so in one of my earlier posts entitled Life's Questions I posed a few questions. The last two were "Why are we here?" and "What is the point?". However the answers I wrote for these were far from thought provoking and more just me getting stuff out of my head. All very well but I thought I'd give answering them another shot now I'm in a more upbeat mood. They're both pretty similar so I'll answer them as one...

Well during the summer I read Richard Dawkins' book The Selfish Gene that basically says that human beings only exist as machines to help our genes survive and be passed on to the next generation. We have been created by our genes to protect them for this generation and then they will be passed on to the next. (I recommend reading it it's interesting what ever your beliefs are.)

Someone else however may argue that we're here as a test to determine how we're going to spend the rest of eternity. If we live a good life then we will be rewarded when we die and if we lead a bad life then we face punishment in the afterlife. Whether this view is true or not I think if people lived their lives as though it was the world would be a better place.

Whichever of the above opinions you take at the centre of it is selfishness. In the first it is perhaps more blatant and though genes can't actually be selfish in the way we might say a person is they behave in a selfish manner. They want to survive and beat all the other genes no matter how they have to go about it. The second one may seem on the surface to be more altruistic. But if the good deeds people carry out are only a means of ensuring they get their place in "heaven" then surely it's self centered. 

Perhaps neither of the above is true and we're just here by chance. The right conditions at a point in time to cause a huge amount of pressure and heat so as to lead to an explosion in which the right protons, electrons and neutrons join together to from the right chemicals to build the right atmosphere for life to begin which through a series of chance events has lead us to the present day. The people who believe in this and still endeavor to do good are surely the best people at heart. Because they're doing it just to do good because they can and want to. They don't believe it's going to make them end up in heaven they just do it. To an extent this could also be said for the first view on life I mentioned but if you read the book you will see why this isn't necessarily the case. (Too complicated too explain here as this post is already quite long but just ask me if you want and I'll try to explain)

Gareth x

Wake up!

Dreams are good in fact they're great. They keep us going when life gets hard and often cheer us up. But how do we make these dreams come true?

WAKE UP!! You can't do anything whilst you sleep except dream. To realise them we need to wake up get out of bed and turn them into goals. Goals are something we can aim for something we can work to achieve where as a dream is just a fantasy an ideal. Simply by changing the way you define the thoughts that fill your head you can change the likely hood in them becoming reality. A dream makes you want to stay in bed, a goal makes you want to get out and go places.

In the words of T.E Lawerence "Those who dream by night in the dusty recesses of their minds wake in the day to find that all was vanity; but the dreamers of the day are dangerous men, for they may act their dream with open eyes, and make it possible."

Shortly after posting this I read this quote and thought I should add it...

"Live the life you've imagined"

Gareth x

Stream of Conciousness

I realised that I haven't wrote anything on here in aaaaaaaaaaaaaages so I thought I probably should but things just wouldn't come easy and it seemed forced. So I'm gunna do summit that I was asked to do by my year 9 english teacher back in school... A stream of conciousness. If you don't know what it is I'll explain at the end.

Beginnings that shoot stars and flowers walls not forgetting trees and randomness with showers and spaceships in prisons whit little tassles made of red satin as I'm sat beneath the hell of a polluted sky that rains down acid and lets in TURNIPS jokes mate jokes where am I going in life and in georaphical terms with friends and family and those ghosts that haunt us and others call memories although not all bad they often make me sad woo hoo a rhyme lemon and lime I'm a poet and I didn't know it well that's a lie because I did cause I write peoms therefore = poet yeah mate and we'll finish cause I paused.


So there was one it's quite short but I got things going on around me so I kinda lost it and paused which messes up the whole point really (Unless you just start a new paragraph everytime you pause)

Anyway the explanation as promised it's pretty self explanatory it's just your thoughts as they come to you and you just write them down. It's easier to do with pen and paper unless you're a good typist. You've just gotta let it flow and write everything down whatever it is and they can be quite funny at times or really deep others and the point is you never know until you've finished.

Gareth x

A crazy day for bugs.

Right then yesterday morning I needed to go toilet. I simple and safe thing to do, or so you would think. However I was ATTACKED by a HUGE spider. So I trapped him under a cup and took a picture of him to show you how crazy it was...



After trapping him I thought well I can't just leave him there how do I get rid of him? I could of let him go outside but then he might come back so I thought I know I'll flush him down the toilet. I did this... A BIG MISTAKE. Cause now I'm scared to use that toilet again. I mean what if he's still down there.

Thats not the end of it though. Oh no that evening my good friend Edd was round and we were playing on the old xbox as you do. It was quite hot so the window was open. Then we heard flapping looked up and there was a MAHUUUSIVE moth/bat thing flying round. Naturally we both jumped up and legged it. Then we came back to take pictures...





Something had to be done; we couldn't leave this man eater just flying around so it needed to be cupped. Guess what... I had to do it. Here is a pic of it after it was caught...



I thought about what to do with it and then just thought na I'll leave it till someone else gets home. It's still there now.

Gareth x

I think you should see this...

Wow fourth post of the day thats gotta be some kind of record (for me at least). But I saw this video and thought I should share it because I think this guy says alot of meaningful and inspirational things. Yeah it's like an hour and fifteen minutes of your life but in my opinion it's an hour and fifteen minutes well spent. Here's the video it's Randy Pausch's Last Lecture...

My Bucket List!

Well guys this is it; my bucket list. I'll probably add things as time goes on and I'll cross things off as I do them. 

1. Dial a random number and talk to the person on the other end.

2. Do the bull run in spain

3. Witness something majestic (stole from the film)

4. Meet "that girl"

5. Touch a complete strangers life

6. Start a charity or play a key role in an existing one

7. Go Bungee Jumping

8. Write a song about someone and play it to them

9. Give more than I have to give to someone/something.

10. Find heaven on earth

11. Find hell on earth and make it better

12. Help someone turn their life around

13. See the sun rise or set at the equator

14. Try to get lost

15. Sleep under the stars

16. Experience how (really) poor people live

17. Visit someone in prison and learn about them

18. Visit a mental hospital

19. Take a library book back 1 minute late and be over apologetic (just for laughs)

20. Have room service

21. Stay up for as long as I can (see if you hallucinate after 3 days) 

22. Finish that story I'm writing

23. Go somewhere really really cold

24. Go somewhere really really hot

25.Do stand-up comedy

26. Find a pen that works (my pen ran out writing number 25)

27. Go zorbing

28. Ride the largest roller coaster in the world

29. Create a website and upload it to the web

30. Get a tattoo 

31. Write to Tish from another country

32. Try the most expensive coffee in the world

Another one from the archive.

Hey same old story as the last post but this one is a bit shorter and more philosophical...

The whole world with just one exception is made up of others. Fact! Can not be changed. So surely others are very important in life. Perhaps we should treat others with respect. Perhaps others should come first. That seems to be the case with everything else. The majority matters. 

But too often we cast aside all others. We focus on us and what is ours. We discard the people that mean the most; that count. The people who, most of the time, love us dearly and who we also love but just cant show it. We’ve got to learn to keep them close. We have to realise when someone is helping us be it a teacher, parent or friend and let them.

One from the Archive.

Hey I was looking through my old computer and found this that I wrote in February 2007, thought I'd share it. It's pretty deep but then it was a pretty emotional and depressive time for me. (The bucket list is on it's way still in progress).

People can leave your life in seconds but the memories stay a little longer. Now sometimes that’s good and others that’s bad. Unfortunately for me I want to forget but can’t, I want to move on but am held back and I want to love again but my heart says “No!”. 

In trying to forget I’ve began to drown myself in the memories and now a minute without a thought of her is all too rare. I find the words I said to her on repeat in my head and the moments we met are on continuous playback. Over and over making sure I live in regret of ever meeting the one I love. Had I known that living without her would be this hard I would never have wanted to meet her. Don’t get me wrong when we were together things were great but the point is we’re not together anymore and there’s the pain; separation. Together in my mind and dreams but not where I need her, in this little town called reality. 

The trouble with reality is that to get out you have to hurt others. Believe me if it wasn’t for friends and family I’d be long gone and free of this torment. I only live for everyone else and no longer for myself. Without her I’m not complete and I’m not me and when I lost her I also lost myself. I exist purely as a being to prevent hurting those close to me. 

It's been a while!

:( July has nearly been and gone without me making a single post on here. I'd like to say it's because I've been enjoying the sunshine but if I'm honest I've spent waaaaay too much time inside. (Inside my house that is I haven't been in prison.) Nearer to the truth is the fact that I don't really have a lot to talk about at present; I'm a wee bit short of inspiration - as some random scottish person would say. 

However despite this I thought I would try and conjure up something remotely entertaining to keep y'all coming back and reading my blog...

*Sits deep in thought*

... OK lets try this for size. I recently watched the film "The Bucket List" for those of you who haven't seen it it's basically about a rich guy and a poor guy who write a list of things to do before they die or "Kick the bucket" hence it being called a bucket list. They then set about completing each of these things. So I'm gunna write my own Bucket List and I'll post it on here in it's entirety and then cross off each thing as I do it. 

So come back and keep checking it out see what I've been doing. (Thats a terrible way to try and get subscribers isn't it but I'm not apologizing you should be subscribers anyway haha) 

Whilst this post is kinda related to films for those of you who don't know possibly my favourite film is Patch Adams if you haven't seen it then this is me telling you to get yourself a copy watch it and take notes cause Patch is a great guy and more people should share his attitude and philosophy on life. 

Peace Out 

Gareth x

The Finer Things in Life

I've realized that all my posts seem to be quite depressing and focus on the things in life that have got me down. So just to mix things up a bit and break the mould I thought I'd focus on the Finer Things in Life for a change.

What do I appreciate in this life I call my own? Well it's actually very small and simple things. For example on my wall in front of me is a little picture of a funny baby. It was given to me one birthday by a good friend named Alex Johnson. If I feel down or sad I look at George, as he's affectionately named,  and he puts a smile on my face. On the same wall I've got my two guitars hanging up, I find them a great way of  releasing my emotions.

I enjoy being able to sit with people in a quiet place and just talk for hours. Likewise late night phone calls, although I very much prefer being face to face each has a special quality to it. I keep in my drawer a letter that a girl named Libby sent to me and a little sign that she enclosed with it saying "No Beans Allowed!"

It's these little things that keep me going and get me out of bed in the morning. That paired with the drive to better both my own and other peoples lives a little bit each day. It stands to reason that if I do this each day and I live long enough there will come a point when nothing can be made better. I believe this point is heaven. Maybe I'll see you there someday :).

Gareth x

Life's Questions

What is love? What is life? Why are we here? What's the point?  All questions we hear so often, but how often do we stop, take a step outside of ourselves, and seek an answer from deep within ourselves. Probably not often enough but for me every now and then something will happen that makes me do just that. Just now one of those events happened. It was simple enough. I just read someone's profile on "bebo" and the feelings that evoked, the pain it made me feel are immense in proportions.

So lets set out to answer these questions (whilst in this pessimistic state). First what is love? Well a simple google "define: love" search tells me that it's "A score of zero in tennis or squash." Good stuff lets keep reading... An Irish Eurovision entry, An American rock group, a 1971 novel, a lunar impact crater, any number of emotions and experiences related to a strong affection. Alright how about a sure fire way to get hurt? Or an inability to explain what makes someone so beautiful? 

What is life? a period of time in which we get kicked down, you get back up, you get kicked down, you get back up, you get kicked down.... you get it. I've spoken to a surprising number of suicidals in my short time here on planet earth and always managed to convince them somehow, after months and months of talking that life gets better. That you have the lows to enjoy the highs. That there's something or someone worth living for. And yet I struggle to convince myself at times (or is it rather the world struggles to convince me?)

Why are we here? To hurt people and get hurt by people. Oh alright then and to make one persons life incredibly happy. But at the end of the day you hurt more people than you make happy. I'd like to meet someone who has never hurt anyone ever in their life.  If you think you haven't then email me and I'll prove you wrong.

What's the point? I have no idea. Sorry for the anti-climax but I don't. Maybe it's to uncover the truth about Hitler's sexuality, or learn that planet of the apes isn't fiction.

And now I feel bad for writing such a negative and depressing thing for you to read. So to clear my conscience and cheer you up a bit...

Cannibals: Living proof you are what you eat. 

Thank you and goodnight

Gareth x 

 

Random Writing

They say the pen is mightier than the sword but I prefer the keyboard cause my hand writing sucks and you don't get that gay cramp in your hand. Any-who lets release some of these crazy emotions from within. Hmmm there's nothing wrong actually in fact things are prob going the best they have in a while but hey I wanna write bout something so I will biatch. Lets have a lil think about what to go randomly  on about for ages...

Girls blates. At the heart of every young mans troubles (well and lesbian's I guess). There's still that same old girl in my life. Well she's not and there in lies the problem.  You might think it's stupid how a 17 year old boy could know much about love, true love I mean, but if this ain't it then I'll do just fine without it thanks cause well when I'm with her I want nothing else and when I'm not with her...well I want nothing else. To me she's the one and always will be I could talk forever bout her though and essentially all I got to say is I love her, I miss her, I want  need her.  So I guess I'll move on to another topic...

Girls blates. At the heart of every young mans troubles (well and lesbians I guess). Talking to this new girl, friend of a "friend" , she's kinda nice well makes me chuckle lol. She's just so random but then hey good match I guess. Will she ever replace she who must not be named? Maybe I kinda wish she does as well cause then the above paragraph would look something along the lines of...

Girls blates. At the heart of every young mans troubles (well and lesbians I guess). There's still that same old girl in my life. Well she's not and there in lies the problem.  You might think it's stupid how a 17 year old boy could know much about love, true love I mean, but if this ain't it then I'll do just fine without it thanks cause well when I'm with her I want nothing else and when I'm not with her...well I want nothing else. To me she's the one and always will be I could talk forever bout her though and essentially all I got to say is I love her, I miss her, I want  need her.  So I guess I'll move on to another topic...

Looks pretty good to me. If only it was that simple. Just strike through your problems. Oh well. I'm just thinking to much to be able to write it down lol so I shall end here. Tune in next week. (Just said it for the effect dunno when I'll write summit else).

I've Moved!

Yeah I thought I'd move my blog to here... why? Because my .mac subscription was gunna cost crazy money and I only really use iWeb so I refused to pay on principle. :). I'll move some of my posts over to here but not all I think we should let the past be the past hey.

Peace out hommie

Gareth x